2021.10.26 05:23 Adventurous-Fall-347 My Job or Lack there of is a defining theme, and determining influence on my depression. I've tried therapy, but have hit road blocks which causes my attempts to go after more, extremely hesitant.
I older than most of the people here. I am the type that falls in to jobs because of friends or family. Going after something is good in theory, but I always seem to talk myself out of it, feel it wasn't right for me or get preoccupied with my energy level.
I've ended up in toxic restaurant/food service for the last several years. I am more inclined to an engineer or programmer than dealing with people directly, and while I managed to make some progress... It's usually wiped out when I can't bring myself to make the new choices/decisions that go along with radical changes.
Doesn't help I feel like something going on with me medically. I've thought of gut issues only to be told by one doctor I had to have this Disease for this to be the case.
This then goes into not being able to take care of myself by letting things go for months or years until they become a huge problem because that's what I'm familar with. I'm losing out on life over and over again and now its approaching the whole, I have to turn things around or whats the point? Or more so, mourning the lost time because now I'm almost if not already considered Old and I haven't really lived.
The few therapists several times. I had one that was a buddy, we just talked, but then they moved and I felt like nothing really happened. So I sought out an expensive, CBT specialist and then I hit extreme resistance. I couldn't do the work unless I was in session, and even then I couldn't answer a lot of it.
Funds quickly ran out when results didn't appear.
The last one, I tried explaining things but I felt like we were too different? Like I was explaining things that I related to, and I couldn't connect with her.
In the end, I'm pretty bleak, and tried of trying half the time, the other half the time, I want to demolish things but I can't see a way to do so... I dislike the idea of meds because the few times I've done okay I haven't needed them. And most of my spirals are due to other people seemingly being fake or not around, which after years makes me feel like I can't trust anyone and who am I, or whom must I be to keep bringing these kinds of people or being alone?
I legit have gone weeks without people calling me or talking to me. Which again leaves me with whats the point?
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2021.10.26 05:23 elixtarnar Cozile la vaccin, „rezultatul fricii”. Ce spune Răzvan Cherecheș despre obiectivul de 70% acoperire vaccinală al lui Valeriu Gheorghiță
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2021.10.26 05:23 Disastrous-Door-6661 It's a home run for Dogberg!
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2021.10.26 05:23 Sleep_eeSheep Repurposing GI Joe Vehicles For M.A.S.K
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2021.10.26 05:23 Screwbreaker If you get to make a ZiO future rider (Kikai,Shinobi,Quiz,Ginga), what would it be?
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2021.10.26 05:23 Internal_Archer1213 we'll crash and burn (pop, alt z)
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2021.10.26 05:23 letmebeunique razors skill bugged?
whenever i play razor I hold down e to get the most of his skill and often he just stands there as if Ive pressed nothing , Its lost me so much time in the abyss
I noticed this a while back and thought it was my keyboard but it wasn't anyone else been having this problem?
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2021.10.26 05:23 ssaminds "Wissenschaft ist keine Demokratie!" - Wolfgang Wodarg
2021.10.26 05:23 Dimass92 Dayz and other games on M1 M1 Pro and Max
Hi, Due to my job requirement I use laptop for work and ps4 for gaming. Both must be updated as my mbpro is from 2015. Here I got a question: had someone tested Dayz (the only game I play) and BFV ( just to.understand apple silicon capabilities) on apples chips? If yes please share your reaults including your settings.
I know that no smart man will buy the mb pro for gaming but here the main task is working an collateral is gaming. Just to see if I can save some money and avoid to buy the ps5.
Standard proper PC for gaming is an alternative but I will need to use my old laptop during my job trips and that's what I want to avoid.
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2021.10.26 05:23 beef_curtainss Marjorie Taylor Greene and Andrew Clyde fined by House Ethics Committee for breaking mask rules
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2021.10.26 05:23 FiestaBlendCheese Were you sedated when you got your IUD?
I just got my mirena IUD today and the doctor told me to take ibuprofen an hour before but that’s it. It hurt so bad I screamed and cried D,: I’m reading some posts here and I see some people were sedated? I didn’t even know that was an option! I’m tearing up thinking about how much it hurt. I don’t even want to go to my college class tomorrow because of it. Waaaaa…
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2021.10.26 05:23 Effective_Tadpole_65 CI/CD for C programs on aws
Hi everyone,. My client has 300+ C Programs which they are compiling on local machine, test it and copy the binaries to the server. Any suggestions on how to implement CI/CD for C programs in aws?
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2021.10.26 05:23 Bulky_Yak6631 SLIDE 4 CARDI first is a Fijian aha
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2021.10.26 05:23 lillemolle I hit a curb while turning and it made a semi-loud squeak sound. the hub cap popped out just on one part and it’s slightly bent. should i be worried?
2021.10.26 05:23 dantekingscribbles Dragon Magus 2 is out now!
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2021.10.26 05:23 Responsible-Walk-459 If it is every adults duty to appropriately educate and where necessary discipline our youth to meet our moral code, how should this be best implemented?
2021.10.26 05:23 Tough-South-4610 How does a Nat 20 on Oathbow work if it is against a sworn enemy?
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2021.10.26 05:23 PM_ME_GAME_CODES_plz ELI5- why are we using the word "meteverse" when the concept itself is nothing new?
I don't know if this is the right sub, but I'm going to ask anyways.
So why are we using the word "metaverse"? Is it just a buzzword to attract clicks/views etc? because we've been living in the so called "metaverse" for at least 2 decades now, and I don't get why we are using a new word for this, or why people act like it's a new concept. Was this a word that was orginally used in the feild and is now getting known by the public? Who actually uses the word 'metaverse' except people trying to advertise their product/services? We already have words like 'digital space/var etc' and just life itself. like it's so bizzare having to learn about "metaverse" and you just learn the same thing all over again.
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2021.10.26 05:23 KirillVnuli At least read it
Good day to everyone who reads this. I apologize to those for writing, maybe it will not be pleasant for someone, someone will cause suspicion or anger. But I'm at the bottom and I don't know how to get out of it. Let's start from the beginning. My name is Kirill, and I'm an idiot. A greedy, stupid, selfish fool. All my life I grew up in a family with a small income and dreamed of someday becoming rich in order to afford everything my heart desires, but unfortunately, instead of wealth, I fell into a debt pit, at the moment loan payments take up my entire monthly salary. My wife is constantly crying, and I feel very sorry for her, because she is not to blame for anything, she just loves... an idiot like me. I ask you for help, for help to my beloved wife, I ask you to help me pay off my debts to make her happy. At the moment, my debt is $18,500. If this message has caused you hatred, contempt, a craving for moralizing and so on, then it's nothing, I'm not offended by you. I just hope that there is at least a drop of humanity left in us, at least a small grain that will make us help our neighbor, because it's easier than it seems. To be honest, I'm not sure if anyone will respond to this letter and I'm ashamed of him, but I don't see any other options yet. Wallet address for those who care 0xf2dE9c9f7f3dE5643D03059618d2Ef8A915B4702
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2021.10.26 05:23 DoctorSusanCalvin overview for 6amrani_2013s